Interesting Thoughs

I'm laying here and its warmer than usual, reading blogs that have slowly made my mind race and other parts of me moist.
Not sure where to turn with these thoughts so i decided to write.
if only writing would get me what I'm craving. something more than what i been getting which is to say the least.
Even tho my last encounter had me on the brink of acceptance into this elite society.
Never the less I'm thinking damn these ladies are Lucky and their trysts only leave me envious and in desperate search of what they are receiving and giving.
aah if only i could be dangerous and have the exciting escapades that i only read of. is such pleasure only extended to a portion of the population?
is it an exclusive club that i have yet to gain membership to but desire to embraced into?

Hmmm lets see what i can get into or i can get into me....

To be Continued...

I wonder why I am the way I am. What has made me into this person that sometimes feels nothing and other times feels everything. From lust to love, from sadness to happiness, from anger to nothin at all.

I realize that people don't see that their actions and selfishness can and do ultimately hurt other people. Their words no matter how slight can bruise.

I'm a firm believer that time and certain situations changes people and people do grow apart. It's normal and natural.

I am easily hurt but slow to anger...

Life

Lord forgive them for they know not what they do,
neva knew he could have been talkin about me and you,
or maybe more so of just me cuz I can't seem to decided which point is A or B,
or if I want to start @ A and work to B.
Or whether there should be a point C.
I'm lost and confused,
neva winnin but I hate to lose.
To lose in the game of life is not knowing how to play ya cards right.
And by right I mean ur own definition,
cuz everyone got to learn to play they own position.

My wish for you

Help me understand so that I may ease your mind.
Explain to me my faults so that I may calm your heart.
Whisper to me your fears so that I might have them carried away in the wind.
Tell me what ur heart feels so that I might have it grow.
Let me know if u need me to stay or get used to being alone.
Tell me if the worries u get will last longer than our fondest memories.
Tell me if the distance will make us fall because our love couldn't carry us over all the Resistance.
Tell me if ur trust is true so that one day I may have something old, something borrowed and something blue.
Tell me if you love me so that all my dreams will come true but because I love you I wish all of these things for you.

A New Day

Everything happens for a reason. something new happens every day. some times it doesn't feel like your life changed for the better but in time you will see that all wounds do heal and life does go on. The world never stops, even when you feel like yours is crumbling it keeps moving and you just have to keep up.

Kryptonite

Damn I'm like Super Man because I got this kryptonite and I just can't seem to get away but I need to but do I want to?

I may not want to but I have learned my lesson because I have let him treat me a certain way and I deserve more and I know that now because the memories we have cannot be erased but I have to grow and move on and not live in our fondest memories but in the reality that you are not with me.

Your kryptonite can no longer effect me. so live your life have fun. My bwoy tek it easy!!

Smh

I know I'm not always fair but I know now that I'm right because everytime I look for a way to depend on you. You find a way to let me down so why should I try to fit you into my life if every time you get the chance you cant handle it? I have enough disappointment in my life wondering now if you name will now be added to that sad list of names....