This is my Truth

There is a lot I keep inside and so much I haven't forgiven. I keep my feelings under wraps because that's what I was taught to do. From then I have learned to Respect those who respect you. I'm tougher than I look and deal with more than most know. I have seen a lot in my almost 22 years but my heart has felt so much more. Sometimes I wonder how I handle it all. how I face the world with so much in my heart but muster a smile on my face. I wrote a poem once that smiles were basically everyday masks. Used to cover ones true feelings of the day the minute or the hour.
The brain is a powerful part of your body because with out it I don't think certain people would like the person I am. I learned early on to think before I speak so my sensor works quite well even when I'm angry. All the time I'm taught to leave it alone and let it go. but the same consideration is not often taken with me for my feelings.
I'm determined to take the world on and be better and do better the product of my environment is not who I strive to be. I believe the Lord put me here to do great things and with my faith I hope that I can and will do the great things that lay ahead of me.
My own children will have the life I once wish I had. I am grounded in this reality and must move through life as such but I will never have that chip on my shoulder that you can see. like Tom said

"Yes, I have tricks in my pocket, I have things ... up my sleeve. But I am the opposite of a stage magician. He gives you illusion that has the appearance of truth. I give you truth in the pleasant disguise of illusion." (1.1, Tom).